is this love by ayumi~ yea~
is this LOVE
whoa whoa yeah, yeah
yeah yeah yeah
lalalala la-i
lalalala la-i
yeah yeah yeah
anata ga yasashiku mitsumeru shisen no
saki de wa hosoi kata o shite'ru
kanojo ga yasashiku shiawasesou na kao de
warainagara unazuite'ta
nanika ga ooki na oto o tatenagara
kuzurete itta you na ki ga shita n' dakedo
miugoki dekizu tada tachitsukushite'ta dake
"doushite watashi jya nai no?" tte kokkei de kudaranai
toikake nante shinai kedo
watashi ga mita koto nai you na anata ga soko ni wa ite
tada tada tooku ni kanjita no
konna kimochi ittai nante ittara ii?
anata ga tokidoki miseru kanashii me no
wake o shitte shimatta kara
nanika shite ageru koto ga dekiru no wa
watashi demo nakute dareka demo nakute
tada hitori dake nante koto mo wakatta no?
itsu kara anata ni konna ni hikarete ita no nante
imagoro kidzuita furi shite
miesuita uso toka tsuite gomakashite mita'n dakedo
tada tada yokei munashikute
konna kimochi o hito wa koi da to yobu no kana?
"doushite watashi jya nai no?" tte kokkei de kudaranai
toikake nante shinai kedo
watashi ga mita koto nai you na anata ga soko ni wa ite
tooku ni kanjite shimatta no?
itsukara anata ni konna ni hikarete ita no nante
imagoro kidzuita furi shite
miesuita uso toka tsuite gomakashite mita'n dakedo
tada tada yokei munashikute
konna kimochi o kitto koi datte iu no ne
whoa whoa yeah, yeah
yeah yeah yeah
lalalala la-i
lalalala la-i
yeah yeah yeah...
lolx!~ out of my mind~
nobody loves me....
everybody hates me...
i'm gonna eat some bugs... =p
i have no idea why but this stupid 'song' seem to be stucked inside my head...arrgghhhh i wonder when it's gonna stop... lolx
it's seems like my mind is getting screwwed up lately...
no mood to work...so i quit~
amazing huh...
6 days of pure boredness hitted me when i started my printing job... it's just stand and print... it's a good thing that my boss is understanding or i wouldn't even last that long... or would i?
oh well... which job isn't that boring... i just keep thinking that i'm bloody useless when i make a bloody mistake... what is bloody wrong with me!????
my boss is sooo damn nice causes stress to be pileing up... it's insane!~ maybe it's becos she never scolds but always shakes her head~ lolx ironic isn't it... i'm suppose to be happy for being let off without the lashing of e ear... i think i need to take a chill pill.
things have been swirling in my head..things that are desperately trying to force it's way out of e corners of my locked moemories...
'stress' seems to be having fun...
or perhaps i'm just nuts... gone out of control...out of my mind...
sinking in a endless pit hole...
refusing to get out...
what am i thinking...
i have no tolerance level for myself.. maybe even others...
i'm contradicting myself...
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!
but somewhere deep down... i know that answer... and i know it too well... i need to snap out of it...losing control...
den again was i ever in control...??
i hate mi...
